10 Months

My last blog post was 10 months ago. Time has been going by so fast. I wish I could tell you what a strong person I have been and how easy it is to balance home and school, but I can't. I have been having quite a hard time, actually. Some of my classes have not been what I was expecting. I am retaking chemistry to get a better grade. I should have known better than to take the online course with no lecture. I'm working at the college as well. I'm the student activities board director. I enjoy my job. I have gotten to meet many amazing people that I am lucky to have in my life.

Home life has been... hard. Danny is going through such a rough time. It hurts me deeply to see him this way. He was always my perfect, happy boy until a few months after we started school. Now he just cries and lashes out in violence most of the time. It makes me feel like a bad mother. I can't help but feel like this is my fault because I'm not home with him anymore. I try so hard to change his temper. I cuddle him and love him, but he doesn't want it when he is angry. Mike does his best to help me. He stays in Danny's room at night when he won't sleep. He tries very hard to give me breaks, but usually Danny won't let him. He just throws fits until I come get him. I appreciate Mike's help more than he could ever know, but it's still very hard. I'm just hoping this phase passes soon so I can get my precious little angel back.

Phillip has been doing pretty well. He is making friends at daycare and getting over many of his social quirks. He is smarter then ever. He loves geography and math. He says he wants to be a mathematician when he grows up. He loves playing video games, especially if it's a Mario game. He still has his moments, but for the most part he is an amazing little boy who I love to pieces.

Mike and I had our sixth anniversary a week ago. It was lovely. That man spoils me beyond belief, and I love him more than anything in this world. He is my soul mate.